Name: Anduin Anduin
From: California, United States
About me: I'm a So Cal girl born and raised. I've known my husband for over 19 years and we've been married for 15. My cat is also 15 years old and his name is Yoshi. He is the ruler of the house and has me under complete submission using his super feline mind control abilities.
Anduin's World
FAVORITE SAYINGS, THINGS I LIVE BY: If you don't ask, you don't get, What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and Just because you can, doesn't mean you should.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Note To Self...
- Focus not on what you want or don't have.
- Focus not on how you think things should be or not be.
- Focus instead on the things that are, the things you do have, and the things you have control over.
- If it is a situation you can change or have an influence in, then act.
- If you can do nothing to change the situation, then resign yourself to accept it and move on.
- To spend so much energy on things you have not control over is a huge waste of time.
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Update
The last few weeks have been very stressful for me and it's mostly due to my job. I go through these periods where I really hate working there. Morale is so bad, people have nothing nice to say about the managers and on and on. Mostly I just try to ignore all of the problems and just do my job, but sometimes it gets me down. Like when my anniversary comes around and I don't get a review or a raise. Something I've been looking forward too for the last six months. It makes me feel unappreciated and when that happens I start to get a little crazy. Whenever I feel like I'm being taken advantage of or treated unfairly, I start obsessively thinking about how it makes me feel. Round and round it goes like a broken record. The more I think about it the worse I feel and I don't know how to stop it. I'm not very good at confronting my boss in this situation either, because I get all teary eyed and can't stop crying. I cry when I'm angry or frustrated and I have no control over it. I don't want to go into her office and start doing that. How embarrasing would that be? So, knowing how I'll get, I've not spoken to her about the way that I feel. But because I can't resolve that problem, it's affecting my mental state and causing me to become depressed. People are noticing and asking me if I'm okay. I'm keeping to myself, not talking, not acting like my spunky self. I don't like feeling this way.
In other news, I got an A in my English class but I had to pass on the next English class I wanted to take because of the schedule and because of the stress I've been under. I don't want to push myself too far and end up having to drop it. Instead, I'm taking a business math class that starts in October. It'll only be an 8 week course. I seem to do better in the accelerated classes. They are over in half the time a regular class would take. It works for me. I'll be better in a few weeks. It takes time to work through these little bouts. My husband has been a real sweet-heart throughout it all. Thanks honey for being there for me.